"well, it's a lie it's a lie don't you believe it. if you're fine then you're fine, it's all how you see it. oh, there never will be no conspiracy of happiness. i'm on a high i'm on a high and there's nothing more to it. i have the sun, it's a star why should i refuse it."

so i'm back from out of town. i had such a nice time. and i got presents, lots of presents. there's another snowstorm on the way tonight. i'm so over the snow. i'll fill you in later on all the sordid details. well i was visiting my family, so we're talking PG sordid, but it was still fun. anyway, i had a nice long phone conversation with the boy last night. that was nice actually. i feel like things are better again. but that happens all the time. the betterness is just a momentarily pause in time when i'm not screwing things up between us. anyway, i made it home this evening and found two excellent cds and a nice note waiting for me in the mail from the adorable christopher. what a sweet guy. he made me a couple cds of some songs that were a part of his blog over the past year. such a great idea. i've already listened to both of them while unpacking and catching up on some mail. all i can say is that he has impeccable taste in music, but i knew that even before he passed the cds along to me. thank you chris. my weekend also included topher grace, marci x, and drunk calls/texts from karen walker. but all that will have to wait until another time when i'm a little less tired. ugh, back to work tomorrow. can i quit my job yet?