nobody said it was easy, no one ever said it would be this hard

it's all right there in front of you. you hold the control in your hands. you know your choices. you know your options. you know what you need to do. now just figure out what you want to do. "oh well you're young still, you have time", isn't gonna cut it any more. every day they push you down a little more. you make excuses to explain away the same water you've been treading forever. you lie. you hide. you're afraid. you think you're making progress and then you start to realize you're worse off than you were five years ago. every chance put away for a better time slowly begins to fade away. just because you're willing to wait forever doesn't mean that everyone else will. there is no reason for that stupid grin. it's not funny. it's not cute. it's tired. you have good things around you, open up your damn eyes and just reach out for one of them. reach out before they leave you alone. alone where you deserve to be for taking them for granted. alone.