i love

emails from melissa at 10:01pm on sunday nights giving me her review of alias, and asking for mine in return.

that i've known melissa for twenty-one years.

it when the best friend knows what i'm thinking just by me giving her one of my three looks.

it when she says, "that my friend is unagi."

when you hear a cover of one of your all time favorite songs, and you like the cover better.

dancing, above the dance floor, on the platform in front of the window on thursday nights with nikki.

getting emails from juliet telling me that it's my turn to pick the movie.

that i've known juliet for twenty-four years.

best friends who don't mind when i fondle their boobies when i'm drunk.

sunshine in full effect, windows down, and jonatha brooke playing as i smile.

knowing that you're out there, that you're reading this, and hope that you're thinking of me as well.

that party of five season one (FINALLY) comes out on dvd in may.

that i have every episode of felicity, party of five, popular, my so-called life, buffy and roswell (minus episode two of the hybrid chronicles) on tape.

freaking out when i hear i can own them on dvd.

buying them the day they come out.

wondering why i'm always broke.

books that you can't put down, no matter how tired you are.

traditions like being with the best friend on every st. patrick's day and new year's eve over the past eight or so years.

making mix cds.

phone calls around midnight and the person saying, "what? hold on." and then "hello?" moments later. or, "put the glass down brother."

text messages from ms. b, always random, always hilarious, always right when i need them most.

that only two people in this world really get me.

wanting it to be three.

knowing that when it comes to the best friend that "maybe" pretty much always means no.

going to work every day knowing that in the back of my mind i've already quit that place.

long IM conversations when i should be in bed, asleep.

talking to you.