maps

i'm building a map to my heart with each passing day.

"the more i share, the more i open up, the more layers that i peel back and expose the easier it is for you to come inside. i'm allowing you inside. for the first time in my life i don't rush inside and lock the door behind me, fearing what might get in. i don't sleep with the lights on, fearing the dark. in the dark, when i open my eyes, i can't see that you're not here by my side. a tiny trick i can play on my mind, on my heart. my heart that breaks every morning when i rise to find that you really aren't here. that sadly, you exist only in my dreams. i show you parts of me that no one knows. parts that i never wanted to share with anyone else. parts that i guess i was saving just for you. it's strange to have this new perspective, seeing things through the eyes of something more than just me. seeing things that i never believed existed before. it's all right there for you. i just wonder if you will ever piece it all together and come and find me."