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my co-worker is evil. straight from the ickiest, hottest depths of hell. bitch knows i'm trying to watch what i eat. bitch knows my lack of self-control. bitch keeps buying my favorite candy bars and leaving them in random places for me to find. i just pout and eat my yogurt and carrots. i think she's trying to rocket to the top of my list and replace janitor evil. she calls me anorexic. i call her hillbilly chicken lover.

spoke with my mom tonight. she was fighting back some tears when she told me that my cousin's ex-husband was killed on monday night. i guess he was involved in a car accident. three cars, two dead drivers, and he was one of them. their marriage went all sorts of bad, but he really was a good guy. my mom was fond of him. it's insane the way things play out sometimes. his father passed away when he was a teenager, and it took him several years to recover from that. after my dad passed away he told me that it took him a long time to move on from losing his dad. how he had spent several years in a fog, and doing a lot of drugs, not really aware of anything that was going on around him. now his son is about to go through the same mess.

is it too late for me to have my felicity life? picking up and moving across the country to go to school. chasing after a boy. guess i need to find the school and the boy first before i set off on my journey. i'm a sad, sad little dork.