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why do you allow them to make you feel that who you are isn't and never will be good enough for them? for yourself. you allow them to get to you to the point where you start to believe their ignorance. you settle into it and you make it your very own. you didn't choose your life any more than they did. you simply wake up. you simply live your life. you breathe. sometimes you smile. you love. you laugh. you question. you grow. you learn. and as it is with them, you simply just are. you're not a champion for any cause. you don't have an agenda. never in your life have you tried to sway another into believing exactly as you do. you stand up for yourself. you stand up for the people you love. they are the ones that spout off about who's right and who's wrong. what the correct way of thinking is. what's considered acceptable. normal. safe. decent. sane. you don't want what you can't have. you don't want them to give you anything. you'd never be happy with a hand me down anyway. you are a son. a friend. a brother. a lover. a boy. you are the person they see on a daily basis. the one they pretend to love. the one that they do love because you fit their mold. should that mold begin to crack, that's when the panic sets in. you can see it in their eyes. they fear you. they don't understand you. and what they don't understand, rather than trying to figure out, they just discard. you shouldn't have to try and fit into their way of thinking. they'd never return that same amount of respect to you. you will continue to live. continue to love. you will be who and what you are. what you always have been. your happiness will drive them crazy. your happiness is something they will never be able to understand. but when you do find happiness, then that at least makes you better off than they are.