smile, don't ask me if i'm fine

i smile when i pop in third eye blind, and put the windows down on the drive into work. i smile because it feels like summer. i smile when the lady at mcdonald's hands me my daily iced tea and says, "here you go hon. i threw in an extra lemon for ya." i want to reach through the window and hug her cute little ass. i smile when i answer the phone and my two favorite people in the whole entire world are on the other end. him telling me how he just won at dominoes again, and her telling me she's just days away from starting driver's ed. what? i remember holding her in my arms when she was three days old. i need to see them more than twice a year. blah. i smile when i see a hott boy, ripped like you would not believe, in a sleeveless hollister t. i smile even more when i find out has last name is woody. i smile when i realize that tomorrow is my last day of work before my vacation. i smile because this city's made me crazy, and i must get out. i smile when i realize that even though there are some people in this life who could take me or leave me these days, there are others who want me around. and that means more to me than i really even deserve. i smile at the absurdity of yet another situation that i seem to have stumbled upon. i smile because it happened to me, as only these things can. i smile at you because you see a new start, and i see a way of saying goodbye.