friday.

after lunch and some shopping with the mom, ms. k picked me up and we headed to the movies. a litmus test of how to tell a person is a good friend: you get in the car with them, a song is on the radio, you hear twenty seconds of that song and not a single other one for the next 5+ hours. she talked, i talked, neither one of us could shut up. we couldn't even make it through the previews without talking. we decided to go with constantine. i saw half the movies playing, she saw the other half, and she wanted to find one that was new to both of us. so constantine it was. i told her that if it was as bad jeepers creepers 1&2 then she was no longer allowed to select the movie. lucky for her, we both really liked it. louis stevens was too funny. the special effects were impressive without getting in the way of the story. even robot keanu seemed a little more life-like in this movie, he must be a newer updated version.

i laugh to myself every time i'm around ms. k. it never fails, a thought pops into my head and seconds later i hear it coming out of her mouth. all through the movie i was craving chips and salsa. i was still a little stuffed from my salad at lunch so i let her pick the restaurant since i didn't plan on eating much. strangely enough she went with chili's because she was hungry for some chips and salsa. we sat and talked forever about soaps (she watches GH and i somehow land on AMC at least once a week, i blame it on my rebecca budig crush), our favorite disney channel shows (we're both addicted to that's so raven), her engagement, the latest on all our friends. by the time we finally stood up i could feel all the food we just inhaled pulling me that much closer to the ground.

on the ride home we talked about our LOST theories, how the BK commercial with darius rucker makes us sad, and our plans for st. patrick's day. we have no idea what we're doing but we'll both be drunk together by 10 a.m. somewhere in the state of ohio.

it's funny how i resisted coming out to ms. b and ms. k for so long because i was worried that it would change the dynamics of our friendships. i'm closer to them than i am to anyone else in my life and i just wasn't able to face the possibility that things might change between us. keeping such a huge part of who you are from the people who are supposed to matter the most to you, in a way, makes the value you put on the relationship seem insincere. i didn't really have a problem telling other friends and people in my life, that aren't as close to me, i guess because if i lost them it would seem less severe. the reality of it all was that i spent a huge amount of my time fearing something that never ended up happening. after i told ms. b that i kept it from her for so long because i was afraid of losing her, she went out of her way to prove to me that things were exactly the same between us, and always would be. the same with ms. k, we're still just as insane as ever when it's just the two of us. and i still laugh so hard that i can't even breathe. nothing changed that. we're still us, and i'm happy about that.