another year

2004 found me with a broken heart. i guess you could say that in 2005 my body was broken. i had surgery in may and i spent the majority of the summer away from work, vegging out in my chair, gaining both weight and an appreciation for murder she wrote. even if my sister firmly believes that jessica fletcher had an insatiable hunger for murder and was secretly offing people and then framing innocent citizens of cabot cove, i found myself a fan for the first time. i also got caught up on every episode of that's so raven, the final season of angel and firefly.

ms. k and i spent most of 2005 drifting apart. bruised egos and several misunderstandings found us not really liking one another very much. but by november we found ourselves making an effort to get things back on track. i do miss her, and i miss ms. b as well. being sick for so long really put a strain on my friendship with them so i hope that 2006 will mean better days for us.

G and i grew closer. in october she said, "i wish our group of friends was fun and wanted to go out for halloween dressed up as something similar. hell i wish we actually had a group of friends we actually liked being around." i think with so much free time on my hands this summer i was able to look at what i really had. i guess that's why i began making some changes when it came to the people i spent my free time with. like i told jules in december, you can only go so long being the only one making all of the effort. one day you just wake up too tired, to worn out to even care any longer and then you move on. and usually you're better off in the end.

thanks to msn, i spent many a drunken weekend night getting to know my dear rach even better. i can't count the number of felicity and alias episodes that i ruined for her, but i exposed her to damien rice and james blunt so i hope that made up for it. in 2004 she sent me an email telling me that everything was going to be okay, so here's hoping that one day in 2006 it finally will. i'm not sure if the fact that we're so much alike means that i'm less of a freak than i previously thought, or that you're more of a freak than you ever thought possible...but i'm glad that we've formed a pretty cool friendship in spite of all the distance that exists between us.

thanks to our camera phones, i found myself waking up several mornings to find pictures from concerts thanks to the adorable jen. i only made it to ryan adams and matt nathanson this year so i wasn't able to fully keep up my end of things. here's hoping 2006 finds her in ohio visiting her sister so i can take her out and get her drunk. i mean, we're all about the boozes after all.

and then there's kia. she still puts up with me after all this time. she forever tries to make me a better gay man, but to be honest she will always be far more gay and more of a man than i ever will. but i love her dearly, even if she makes me crazy always telling me that i'm wrong and she's right. thank you for this, and thank you for your friendship, i heart you hardcore. at the very least 2006 will eventually find me closer to her when i visit my sister, after the move.

happy new year, here's hoping this coming year will be better than the last.