"if you transfer departments i'm definitely quitting. well, i'll probably quit. i might quit. maybe i'll quit. i absolutely, probably, might quit...maybe."

i knew she'd play this card. i also know her well enough to know that she still might try to sabotage the entire move, just to keep things the way that she wants. what's best for her. for someone who forever feels the need to remind me how great of a friend she is to me, sure likes to put what's best for her first. i discussed with P today how she likes to try her reverse psychology bit on me, thinking that i'm foolish enough to change my mind into doing exactly what she wants. when the truth is i do all of the work, i run the department, i answer every single question that comes up, and she takes credit for everything. and i've known that all this time, and i know that it's my fault for putting up with it. and honestly, i never really cared that much before. but now that i'm trying to do something for myself for a change, i do care. the thing is that P and i both feel that she will try and mess things up for me just to keep things exactly how they are, easy for her. i'd like to say that i don't understand why everyone else rips her apart behind her back, but i can't. i'm starting to think that years of defending her was a wasted effort.